As someone who has also been grappling with similar thoughts, I found the way you put this so thoughtful, elegant. A sense of unworthiness is definitely there-- (fallen Catholic here)-- and for me, it goes back a lot to "this demi-god here DIED for you WORTHLESS people! Do BETTER" (in my head the comment almost spits in my face..). It's a lot, and thanks for the podcast rec, I will definitely be checking it out!
As someone who has also been grappling with similar thoughts, I found the way you put this so thoughtful, elegant. A sense of unworthiness is definitely there-- (fallen Catholic here)-- and for me, it goes back a lot to "this demi-god here DIED for you WORTHLESS people! Do BETTER" (in my head the comment almost spits in my face..). It's a lot, and thanks for the podcast rec, I will definitely be checking it out!